Lonely in the Darkness

Tonight I am just sitting in the corner of my room while listening to Norah Jones song “ Thinkin’ about you “. I’ve always liked this song every now and then and sometimes I just got carried away by the lyrics. It reminds me of something, something that I must have since a long time ago. I keep thinkin’ and asking myself “ what is exactly wrong with me and what is happening to me “ I don’t even know where is life leading me. Those such questions have been crossing in my mind since years ago and I still can’t figure it out why am I being so lonely and feel totally incomplete. There’s a whole in my soul that I need to fill up ……………

I keep trying to get rid of those feeling, trying to socialize with others but it seems that failure is always there waiting for me. Maybe God is not planning something for me, just yet…. When I was twenty, thought I knew it all. But I was wrong, and that was back then and shit, that wasn’t something that I want. Dear God, wake me up… Guide me, surprise me, enlighten me with sparks of lights for I am sitting here in the darkness and cold and lonely. All I hope is just spark of life.